the 82th post in my blog

for the day i created my blog...until today...
every single blog i worte ~ will realted him!!

sigh ~
i dunnoe how can i rescue myself..

im in the office, without soul..
nothing for me to do..
is such a bored bored extremly bored monday ><

yet, i have to say that..
last weeks was so tough for me to pass thru ~
the sux feeling is just keep approached to me...
i hate this !!!!! i really do !!!

is how suffer while im not able to cry...
the tear juat cant drop,
but the heart is pretty pain,
yet i cant breath n talk...
just silent and force myself to ignore the feelings

is just shit thing for me to bear with!!!

please please please ~
please enixx yen please ~
do better than you tot ~
as friends told,
we still have many things need to do ~
we cant just stand here,
have to move forward...

take a bravo feeling
and walk away ~

is almost 4 months ~
more than 100+ days adee

chill baby ~ chill

=)

can everything restart over again??

dont you ever watch a animation called 天空之城 君をのせて Laputa ???
it means a lot of me ~
he loves this animation ~ he loves the song...
before that i never try to listen it, but i know he loves it..and today, the first time i listen to this song... is touch~ but i feel comfortable while listen it ~ just like the feeling he gave to me ~
baby prince ~
you leave my life adee 97 days ~
dont you know ~ i still missing you every second?

i feel to share my feeling to you,
you know ~~ im so sad on today,
because one of my jimuis said that she feel that she not a good friend ~ even she's nobody real friend be with ~
when i saw it ~ the feeling is just like you told me that the feeling is fade away ~
i feel so cold ~ my mind is blank ~ i cant speak ~
but im trying to comfort her word by word...but i feel that ..again im giving stress to her

indeed ~
im not that good in manage a relationship ~
you ~ her ~ someone that be with me ~
i dunnoe what to do ~
i just keep listening this music and try to make myself calm n not to cry
because i know that,
you n her also have some tot in yours mind ~
but then ~
i cant understand ~

im sorry that i have bring stress to you ~
im not mean to be that
but i can tell you ~
I CARE , I LOVE , I APPRECIATE ~

baby ~
never giving up on the better further n relationship we should be

better in time ~ ^.^v

It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through
Going coming
Thought I heard a knock
Who's there no one
Thinking that I deserve it
Now I realize that I really didn't know
If you didn't notice you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All that I know is I'mma be ok
[Chorus:]Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time
I couldn't turn on the TV
Without something there to remind me
Was it all that easy
To just put aside your feelings
If I'm dreaming don't wanna laugh
Hurt my feelings but that's the path
I'll believe in
And I know time will heal it
If you didn't notice boy you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'mma be ok

[Chorus:]
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

Since there's no more you and me
It's time I let you go
So I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is
I'll be fine without you
Yes I will

[Chorus: x2]
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
Even though I really love youI
'm gonna smile cause I deserve to (yes I do)
It'll all get better in time


will be better in time ~
finally here was the 3rd month without you in my life
everything is over ~

and now ~
im doing hard to decide this
LET GO GO GO GO ~~~

will stop myself ~
but ~
nothing gonna change the feeling im have to you ~

maybe god bless us,
stay bliss ~