我还好吗？

我還在相信你太自然的謊言
以爲幸福還有可能實現
你的心總有另一面我看不見
我依然把你當成是我的天
你願意保留給我的時間在遞減
你卻說這和愛不愛都沒有關聯
我不懂我們還是不是同心圓
如果心變了怎麽會不明顯
你的愛早已經不同我的心缺了一個洞
我像是個失去心跳的不倒翁動也不能動
你的愛我已經不懂我的愛沒有用
如果你問起我假裝不痛
我們的回憶弄掉了我都不敢撿
你漸漸的改變是暫時還是永遠
你施捨的寂寞讓我比一無所有更難過
我不奢求給我一個結果
如果要走至少告訴我


不痛~假的~
我很迷惘~ 我不懂我是否在逃避
我变成驼鸟了吗？
我好像真的躲了起来呐。。
不看！不听！不问！
会好噢？

为什么我那么努力的让自己开心的我还是在难过？
我笑的越大声，就越心虚。。
我真的快乐不起来吗？
可不可以请位魔术师？
把你变走。。不再留在我心里。。
那我就能真正的快乐开心的笑啦~

他？你？我？
谁会是那魔术师？
好多问号。。却没有答案。。

你的心。。有答案了吗？

all good thing come to an END

Honestly what will become of me
don't like reality
It's way too clear to me
But really life is dandy
We are what we don't see
Missed everything daydreaming
[Chorus:]
Flames to dustLovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
Flames to dustLovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to end?
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to an end?
Traveling I only stop at exits
Wondering if I'll stay
Young and restless
Living this way I stress less
I want to pull away when the dream dies
The pain sets in and I don't cryI
only feel gravity and I wonder why
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to end?
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to an end?
Well the dogs were whistling a new tune
Barking at the new moon
Hoping it would come soon so that they could
Dogs were whistling a new tune
Barking at the new moon
Hoping it would come soon so that they could
Die die die die die
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
Flames to dustLovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to end?
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to an end?
Well the dogs were barking at a new moon
Whistling a new tune
Hoping it would come soon
And the sun was wondering if it should stay away for a day 'til the feeling went away
And the sky was falling on the clouds were dropping and
the rain forgot how to bring salvation
the dogs were barking at the new moon
Whistling a new tune
Hoping it would come soon so that they could die.

可不可以不勇敢？

the day you went away..
until today..another thursday~ 13/8/09
6 weeks ago
long duration? or its just started?
for me ? for you?

im using my heart to let you go
im using every minute to let you go
im using my tear to let you go
im using all effort to let you go
everything i do now ...
just for let you go,
you never know,
how hard im doing right here...^.^v

i smile ~ when i cry
i miss~ when i pain
i felt appreciate ~ because you are here 'before'

give up~
is because you are in love now
give up~
because i still care about you
give up~
because im not bravo enough~
give up~
because i dun wan hurt someone who care me
give up~
because i wan be happy
give up~
because i wan walk further
give up~
because you are not here anymore
give up~
because I FORCE TO DO SO!!!!

im doing hard to think of you~
because you are so far
it so hard to let me look at you
i miss the warm that on your body to me
even now im the one who in cold ~

baby prince ?
i miss the baby prince who care and makes me cry~

*again~ but im not crying ~ ^.^b

还有谁能来叫我爱？

你开心吗？
很多人会问我的问题。。
我不会回答。。

我笑。。真的想笑吗？
我哭。。真的想哭吗？

我会痛吗？舍得吗？
公平？存在吗？
付出？有回报吗？

有人对我说：你变了。。
我愣住了。。
他发觉我变了。。那其他人呢？
我还是我吗？

他说：你不再将心交出了， 你把一切感觉封闭了。。我不懂你到底是否快乐

对!!!他说的没错，　我把悲伤封住了。。
我装傻。。
我不去找寻我心底的心情。。
我不去承认。。左手边的痛。。
我将它遗忘～不理。。逃避。。

心是空的。。
爱是假的。。

等待~我有吗？
放弃～真的吗？

我不想忘了你。。
可是记住你能不痛吗？
我曾对你说：那天你找到一个你爱的人，你就会明白我的心情。。你找到了吗？我想，你应该很幸福快乐。。我说我不爱你。。你相信吗？你觉得那两年的付出是什么？

一封永远都寄不出的信：你说你哥在读书时写过的一篇作文。。

现在这封信是我徐嘉忻写给陈锡泉的。。

陈锡泉，

你好吗？你懂从那天你离开至到现在的我怎样过吗？
我不停的找寻朋友来填补我想你的时间。。
手机里的信息。。我不敢看。。
包包里的照片。。
唉。。多么可笑。。
我还在期待你会回来陪我过生日，结果。。两年的感情也只能换到４个字。。
牛车水拍的那张照片。。还在床边。。
可是你和我却越走越远了。。
你忘了这个我吗？可能吧。。
一直以来，你都没关心在乎我，　现在我走了，你更不会想起我。。
有错吗？？。。

看到我的泪吗？
感到我的痛吗？
我不想忘记陈锡泉，可以吗？
记住陈锡权。。好吗？
我说不出你到底那里好，就是永远都替代不了。。
你的坏，都变好了。。
你的心。。在爱了。。
可是我。。却再次被痛苦吞噬。。
我很想说祝福你的话，可是我觉得我很虚假。。
我开心你快乐，可是难过那不是我陪着你。。

我忘了我写过多少封这样的信。。
也不懂你是否都看完
你说不会有人比我更好。。
你会想收回这句话吗？
我很乱。。
想开心却不想忘记你。。
唉。。。

你可以永远记着我吗？
那天看见什么。。会想起小小的我。。
会笑一下，说：她好吗？

最后一句：
在这世界里，就一个陈锡泉
但。。陈锡泉却是徐嘉忻的世界。。


you will always on my mind ~
i dun wan to forget you~
even im in pain~
i dun care, you are the one ~
but i wont come to you anymore..
just leave it here
silently ...

simple life ~ love you

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=okHNvf2lc0Q

dun simply click it oo~
have to ask my baby's permission
if she said ok then click oo~
chill~

junjun,
love you~
muacxX

i still miss you~

1st Aug 2009
a awesome night?
a happy day?
my day?
lolz~ i celebrated my bday with my family ~ friends ~ and lovely ji muis~
everything seem like so happy ~
but i still feel~ abit empty ~
i still wishing somthing ~ sigh~ stupid!!!

2nd Aug 2009
he promised that he will be here ~
the promise ~ is broke
just a stupid will trust that he will keep the promise
so in fact, stupid know that everything is over...
she spent a happy day with her dear baby ~ junjun
she shout ! she sang out loud in the k room for 4 hours
full of laugh~ without tear ~
she felt so glad that have junjun be with her
she appreciate

12.00am...
ding dong ~
while she on the bed ~
smsing with lovely jun n someone
she pop out from bed ~ run to washroom
then open the door ~
a girl standing there ~ she dunno who she is ~
the girl said : im fedex delivery a cake for you..
me: har? fedex?(is it you)
jeric,johnson,xm,xm,jerret: happy birthday to you ~ happy birthday to you~ happy birhtday to you~ happy birthday to you~
me: omg !!!! a big suprise ~
enixx heart: im so touch~ i feel wan to hug you guys ~ im appreaciate this day~ the thing you guys gave, jsric gor ~ im so glad that have a bro like you, your care, your word~ and your PLAN!! hehe..im do so lucky i have friends like you guys ~ i love you all~

3rd Aug 2009
office~ Alltech's colleagues
had a birthday lunch at Fullhouse ~
a place that i cel my anni with him~
21 lil cake~ 21 lil candle ~
is nice ~ is awesome
and the key given by Alltech
im happY ...i wish i can do much more better here
i started love Alltech

i received a forward bday msg from my sis
my tear dropped ~
i feel so sorry ~ guilty
suddenly ~ i decided ~ sent him a msg
a tot after we broke up for 1 month
i know that ~ he love her~
im so glad that ~ he love someone now ~
finally ~ even i still miss him~
but i let him go ~ because he never belong to me ever again?
hard feeling ! but i smile ~ i feel glad ~
he is the one ~ i cant explain how good he is ~
but he just cant be replaced by anyone ~ sigh
unfortunely i get to be replaced ~ haha
: for the world you are 1 person, for me ~ you are the world ~
i miss you, even you just give me 4 words ~ happy birthday to you!!


at night ~
family dinner ~ shabu shabu~
invited xm's family
eating a delicous food ~
im happy ~ while with family

10pm sis called
: karyen~ 21st loo~ grow up ade, passed ..was pass ~ so dun turn back and think of it ~ today onward start up your new days ~ dun think so much..k?

me: *tear dropped* erm~~ i wull~

4th Aug 2009
went dinner + movie with xm
i forgot how long ,we both din hanging out like this
form the day *** cames to your world ~ ?
lolz~ is good ~ is touch~ lolz in my heart

11.30pm~ ready at sm's house with a gang of friend ~ hehe
12.00am~
*knock door*
sm: why have cake de?
we all: happy birhtday to you!!!
haha~ a suprise ~ lolz
im so sleepy actually ~
but i still wan to join~ because im behalf of 8ggals ~ haha

5th Aug 2008
im sitiing here ~
and type out a report for my day!

dunnoe why,
my heart feel so pain today~
i din think of him~
when i awake, i feel great
i took shower , clean aquarium~,feed my tings n petss
changed the water for lil bamboo
apply a sweet sweet perfume
get ready for work~

but once i sat in the office ~
pain attacked!!!!
is darn pain!!
im curious why i pain~
i tot i let go ade ...do i?

i listened the song "seh bu de"
i keep on consult myself
i have run out of time
i dun like him anymore

but i still pain!!!!!
i miss him~
and i know he miss her~
i just dun wan to be alone ~
anyone acc me ?
i just wan to put him aside ~
let him stay away from me ~
can i?

chin siak chann!!! i miss you badly ~
can you please stay away from my mind
my heart?
is really pain ~
but i dun wan to cry fpr you anymore ~
im do very hard, don't you know?
i said i dun love you!!! i never !!!

is over !!!
forget it !!!!!
let it go!!!
enixx yen !!! you can de ~ believe in yourself!!!
only you can control your mind ~
do it !!!