i still miss you~

1st Aug 2009
a awesome night?
a happy day?
my day?
lolz~ i celebrated my bday with my family ~ friends ~ and lovely ji muis~
everything seem like so happy ~
but i still feel~ abit empty ~
i still wishing somthing ~ sigh~ stupid!!!

2nd Aug 2009
he promised that he will be here ~
the promise ~ is broke
just a stupid will trust that he will keep the promise
so in fact, stupid know that everything is over...
she spent a happy day with her dear baby ~ junjun
she shout ! she sang out loud in the k room for 4 hours
full of laugh~ without tear ~
she felt so glad that have junjun be with her
she appreciate

12.00am...
ding dong ~
while she on the bed ~
smsing with lovely jun n someone
she pop out from bed ~ run to washroom
then open the door ~
a girl standing there ~ she dunno who she is ~
the girl said : im fedex delivery a cake for you..
me: har? fedex?(is it you)
jeric,johnson,xm,xm,jerret: happy birthday to you ~ happy birthday to you~ happy birhtday to you~ happy birthday to you~
me: omg !!!! a big suprise ~
enixx heart: im so touch~ i feel wan to hug you guys ~ im appreaciate this day~ the thing you guys gave, jsric gor ~ im so glad that have a bro like you, your care, your word~ and your PLAN!! hehe..im do so lucky i have friends like you guys ~ i love you all~

3rd Aug 2009
office~ Alltech's colleagues
had a birthday lunch at Fullhouse ~
a place that i cel my anni with him~
21 lil cake~ 21 lil candle ~
is nice ~ is awesome
and the key given by Alltech
im happY ...i wish i can do much more better here
i started love Alltech

i received a forward bday msg from my sis
my tear dropped ~
i feel so sorry ~ guilty
suddenly ~ i decided ~ sent him a msg
a tot after we broke up for 1 month
i know that ~ he love her~
im so glad that ~ he love someone now ~
finally ~ even i still miss him~
but i let him go ~ because he never belong to me ever again?
hard feeling ! but i smile ~ i feel glad ~
he is the one ~ i cant explain how good he is ~
but he just cant be replaced by anyone ~ sigh
unfortunely i get to be replaced ~ haha
: for the world you are 1 person, for me ~ you are the world ~
i miss you, even you just give me 4 words ~ happy birthday to you!!


at night ~
family dinner ~ shabu shabu~
invited xm's family
eating a delicous food ~
im happy ~ while with family

10pm sis called
: karyen~ 21st loo~ grow up ade, passed ..was pass ~ so dun turn back and think of it ~ today onward start up your new days ~ dun think so much..k?

me: *tear dropped* erm~~ i wull~

4th Aug 2009
went dinner + movie with xm
i forgot how long ,we both din hanging out like this
form the day *** cames to your world ~ ?
lolz~ is good ~ is touch~ lolz in my heart

11.30pm~ ready at sm's house with a gang of friend ~ hehe
12.00am~
*knock door*
sm: why have cake de?
we all: happy birhtday to you!!!
haha~ a suprise ~ lolz
im so sleepy actually ~
but i still wan to join~ because im behalf of 8ggals ~ haha

5th Aug 2008
im sitiing here ~
and type out a report for my day!

dunnoe why,
my heart feel so pain today~
i din think of him~
when i awake, i feel great
i took shower , clean aquarium~,feed my tings n petss
changed the water for lil bamboo
apply a sweet sweet perfume
get ready for work~

but once i sat in the office ~
pain attacked!!!!
is darn pain!!
im curious why i pain~
i tot i let go ade ...do i?

i listened the song "seh bu de"
i keep on consult myself
i have run out of time
i dun like him anymore

but i still pain!!!!!
i miss him~
and i know he miss her~
i just dun wan to be alone ~
anyone acc me ?
i just wan to put him aside ~
let him stay away from me ~
can i?

chin siak chann!!! i miss you badly ~
can you please stay away from my mind
my heart?
is really pain ~
but i dun wan to cry fpr you anymore ~
im do very hard, don't you know?
i said i dun love you!!! i never !!!

is over !!!
forget it !!!!!
let it go!!!
enixx yen !!! you can de ~ believe in yourself!!!
only you can control your mind ~
do it !!!