眼泪。。

噢。。眼泪。。。
一首动听的歌，那天看到一段挺有意思的字句：男人的眼泪是因为真的爱了，女人的眼泪是因为真的放弃了？我在回想着我每一滴眼泪。。。

第一滴泪；告诉所有人，我出生了。。
接下来的每一滴泪。。。还有什么意义呢？
可能我跌痛了，所以我哭了。。
可能我生气了，所以我哭了。。
可能我失望了，所以我哭了。。
可能我失去了。。。所以眼泪留下来了。。。
可能我爱上了。。所以眼泪为我开心了。。

女孩的眼泪。。最近。。我被她的部落格感动了。。她是一个怎么样的女孩？在她呈现的每个故事。。让我怀疑着。。我之前对她的想法，是否我太主观？她成长了?她受伤了？可是她很勇敢。。愿神会爱护她。。祝她幸福，虽然她并不认识我。。。（我没看过她的泪，可是我感觉到她的泪）。。

男孩的眼泪。。在我记忆里只有杰佬，他的泪是感动的。。那一刻让我很深刻，这也让我了解，眼泪并不是女生的权利。。也让我感觉到，男生的脆弱。。其它的也只听回来的，甚至有一些让我厌恶的哭声。。并不感动。。。

安静的泪。。没有激动的情绪，是无力了？是太痛了？还是根本不需要任何的情绪去流泪？
激动的泪。。是在假装？还是真的有必要那么激动？可能真的不了解，所以不加以评论！！我尊敬每个人发泄的习惯！！
笑中带泪。。这又是那一种情绪？是明白了？是了解了？还是太开心呢？。。天晓得。。

我害怕安静的空气突然侵袭我。。。因为这可是让我再度陷入想念的情绪，这样的情绪，会带我进入眼泪的世界。。越甜密的回忆，越让我无法忍耐。。

还有，如果做人常带着面具。。会辛苦吗？卸下保护色吧。。这样才能找到真真的快乐！！
眼泪也有快乐的权利！！。。。

第一次

哈哈哈。。。我今天去了找eugene。。。因为我要改变发型啊。。。原本要做离子烫，可是他说我的头发已经很直了，不建议我做哦。。所以呢？玩颜色咯。。哎哟，其实噢，我还真的接受不了我现在的颜色噢。。不懂。。我有点担心咯。。怕脱色后会很难看。。

不管啦。。凡是都有第一次。。哈哈。。。管他的。。开心就好。。。

啊。。很穷很穷很穷。。。
我的薪金都被我用完啦。。我都把钱买完礼物哦，姐姐的钱包啦，哥哥的psp,(只是1/3啦），还有奖励自己的礼物。。。好多好多的消费。。哈哈哈。。。
好快噢，明天是我最后一天在origins工作咯，还有明天是2008的最后一天。。。唉。。闷！！
好无聊的new year eve。。孤单单。。一个人。。哈哈。。
没节目，没人物，没办法啦。。。我就是一个人。。。可是心相连啦。。。我懂在某个角落，有某个人。。。哈哈。。。

想太多了。。是时候睡觉了。。。。

无聊。。。

哈哈。。终于找到华语的啦。。。
阿德哥。。。我不用再烦恼于gramma.....哇哈哈！！
我忘了有多久没有用华语来写东西，可是还是母语最好!
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再过几天，2008年就要结束了，这几天我总好象过得很开心，没有烦恼，我不晓得是什么让我拥有这般心情，可是在这刻我竟有那么一点点的落寞，是我身旁的他不在？还是我还处于茅盾的状态？学院我读完了；工作要结束了，还有一些事情还未被决定。。。好多好多的事情等着我去做，我真的很想象小孩一样，拥有那无邪的笑容，没烦恼的日子，这一切都变成我的梦想。。
一直生存在温室的我要踏出那独立的一步还真的有点难，但天下无难事嘛，嘻嘻。。可我却是那种有心人咯。。真难搞！！唉。。。

凌晨的一点三十分。。。我在对抗着睡魔。。
刚才很好玩。。我，君君，阿玫，还有anne都`在线上，在一起用着字句在聊天，这感觉不同于平时的聊天，有点复杂。。有点乱，可我是开心滴！！！

刚才华丽台播了‘校墓处’。。。这套电影有着一个特别的回忆，所有的一切因它开此。。。
一个恐怖片，一个甜蜜故事。。好强烈的对比……

不知不觉，半小时过去了。。
想不到了。。
我只想到我的宝贝床铺。。。。zzzzzz

我的朋友，
我不懂你到底发生了什么事，可我还是会在这准备着，随时来找我，我会陪着你的……
我可能不是什么受护天使，可我会做一位很棒的聆听者……
安静的思考……
加油吧！！！！

晚安……

Meal

25th Dec 2008

we are having a Chritsmas meal at TGI Friday!!...The curve...there was a nice place ' THE STREET'..i dunnoe how to describe it but it just full of joy and happiness...(and some lonely feel) but it have melt after 'lou gong' ----jun jun you arrived!!

a empty seat that beside me, feel so bad for it....

my meal on 25th Dec 2008...seasonal chicken?

a 'chritsmas kiss' from my 'lou gong' ---junjun

27th Dec 2008

hmm..PANCAKE HOUSE..at MV...is it nice...special....i like it.....i would like to promote for my friends....

TOKYO...bla bla bla..(i forgot the name) hehe....but it is really nice..i like it so much, but for sure there have more choices....specially the beef, so bad i cant eat beef...anywhere i'm satisfy with my dinner ...wahhaha...erm..

after dinner, back to my department store, and yet, SISLEY's promoter---yee. asked Jasmine to drink ' liong sui' but she saw there have too many, then invited Jacksan, then he simply asked me and Jenny, for sure, have something to eat, i will approach laa...but then it is nice and sweet loo...aspecially the biscuit ...but i dunnoe what brand...i just know to eat...SEE!! we are so enjoyed when EAT!!!!

28th Dec 2008

why i have to capture it? because this my breakfast? not so easy...the answered is, today was the last business day for this "YUEN HIN RESTAURANT", i was so suprise when i know that...hmm..the auntie told me that, when she married with her husband this restaurant already started, now her elder son already 35 years old. you can imagine how long the restaurant have been started? even the helper there also worked for 19 years adee...there have a lot of memories...the helper said, she saw anuties's son growth, marry, baby born....but now everything have to end on today....after the story....i have hard feeling on this case! something may happened out of your expectation...maybe auntie was plan to establish the restaurant until the day she cant work for it anymore, but now she force to stop the restaurant, just because of the rennovation and improvement of the places....anywhere today was the last time i have breakfast at there, next time i pass by the place, there may become empty...but memories still in my mind...the 1/2 boil eggs, hot bali...i'm started to miss it...

shopping

im being a personal outlook adviser for my sister today, i keep on choosing the shurt for my sis, i wan her to look like an OL!!! the shirt she wear...haihz..is so too old school laa..haha...is time to change!!!!
let's your lovely sister help you!!
but then i also have choose some shirt for myself...but then not really get it...
but at least is still can find 2 top....erm, actually those top is not my usually wearing. im wondering that is it i will wear those shirt? haha
anywhere im happy to get those shirt. is nice!!
erm.....bad!!....
something is bad....

feeling....

Feeling....
today someone told me that if you always dream the dead body it may actually represent you are feel sad in your heart....
im was thinking what is the sadness deep inside my heart? honestly i always dream it, even i scare until wake up, but then what makes me feel so?
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refresh my memories again, adee whole month never dream of that..is it means that recently im happy? because if what? haihz....im so lost la...
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on the other hand, i still have something that make me confuse....
i may did something wrong, i felt so guilty, but then i dunnoe how to appologise ..i think she not meant to be like this, jealousy really a big trouble! sigh***
i'm sorry if i make you feel bad...
i really make a big mistake!!! im so sorry, but then i can tell you, he was a good guy, i know that you are important to him! no worry k? from last time i know him until now i can feel that he was changed, maybe its really because of you!!! just try to share your thing with him, he was your prefect places to dump all your sadness, because he do really care of you! dun keep all thing deep inside your heart, sometimes silent will kill the happiness....just share everything! you are the miracle for him, since you decided to be with him, believe him!
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come back to my personal part,
i feel emo again, dunnoe why just feel the tear is rolling in my eyes? although im listening the sweet love song,'forever' this word is so............(speechless)
'rational' it might be...the -ve thinking? i too rational in love,i cant treat love as everything, i have consider alot of thing, how come i cant like others just shout out 'I LOVE YOU FOREVER' gosh!! this word is so hard for me sigh**T.T
maybe because the past experience that i have gain, it affect the perception that i have when related in love, i cant even trust a person said 'I LOVE YOU ',mabye the person do, but a lot of thing that happened around me...its have prove that there have no 'FOREVER', or can said that because of last time i do really believe that the guy was good, but then now i realize that everything was a cheat. as day goes by, i flash back to the thing i have done, i analyst it, and the conclusion is i have blind!!!
but then, i guess i have no regret on those thing, because learn from mistake,maybe they treat me bad doesn't mean that they treat their beloved bad, maybe just because im not their beloved, just a advise dun ever hurt someone, even though your not like ot love he or she!
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anywhere, wish all the person who view and read my blor will gain a happiness life and meaningful relationship!! be glad that have someone beside you and apperciate what you have now....dun make yourself regret.....

22.12.2008

today wake up 8a.m because i have to work, gosh im so tired....lazy to wake up lorr..haha....but i have no other choice...have to wake also..too bad...
then go to Taman Desa to take my breakfast...haha..
today was so bored, i have nothing to do whole day, my friend went training, have no one chit chat with me, some more today seem like 'chai sheng' is busy, because i serve many 'siu wan' and 'sin kat' all also come in the asked this and that than give me a smile and said 'thank you, byebye'...ishh...angry...try this and that apply all ovet the hand then go off..bad laa...but never mind at least i adee gain my expected commission de...for sure i wish that i still can earn more..hehe....

6.00pm..finally work hours for today is done, then went for movie...
THE EARTH STOOD STILL....
it makes me so so so disappointed loo...im so sad....sobzz...
i just feel bored and no any story line....
bad bad bad....
anywhere i still satisfy for today, because im happy........^.^

25th Dec 2008
chritmas is at the corner, hmm...im so happy that we have a gathering on that day at the curve TGI friday..muahahha...but honestly im lack of money now, just go there for meeting up with my jimui only, but kelly have to work cant join, so bad...but then nevermind laa...

sharing= caring!!
hehe...

'dong zi'

我还在寻找

一个依靠和一个拥抱

谁替我祈祷 替我烦恼

为我生气为我闹

幸福开始有预兆

缘分让我们慢慢紧靠

然后孤单被吞没了

我俩变得有话聊 有变化了

小酒窝常见到 是你最美的记号

我每天睡不着 想念你的微笑

你不知道 你对我多么重要

有了你生命完整的刚好

酒窝常见到 迷人的无可救药

我放慢了步调 感觉像是盒资料

终于找到心有理智的美好

一辈子暖暖的好 我永远爱你到老

幸福开始有预兆 缘分让我们慢慢紧靠

然后孤单被吞没了

我俩变得有话聊 有变化了

小酒窝常见到 是你最美的记号

我每天睡不着 想念你的微笑

你不知道 你对我多么重要

有了你生命完整的刚好

小酒窝常见到 迷人的无可救药

我放慢了步调 感觉像是盒资料

终于找到心有理智的美好 一辈子暖暖的好

我永远爱你到老 WO~小酒窝常见到

迷人的无可救药 我放慢了步调

感觉像是盒资料 终于找到心有理智的美好

一辈子暖暖的好 我永远爱你到老

the song im listening now, im thinking of him....the 'xiao jiu wo' haha....

but then the lyrics here have problem, it have some mistake loo...but no big deal laa..hehe..

today is 'dong zi' 0o0...a time for the person to meet together......

i miss the 'xiao jiu wo', when? you will approach to me again.....?

the 'tong yun'....i made dee....but not so nice....

the most cold moment is approached, i feel so cold now, may i have a hug? to let me warm?

5C gathering

haha..maybe it was a fun gathering....

haha....maybe it was a good gathering...

adee 3 years we finished SPM, everyone is changed!! haahaa..is so good when chit chat..something that really intersting, then we flash back those secondary's time...hahha....im so miss the time...we just like a family...

thank you ar jie, you are so good, every year organize the gathering for us to meet up and chit chat...next year maybe go for barbeque at mr hunt's house, since every year also sing k adee feel sien liao, steamboat not interesting anymore, what else? barbeque lo..haha...but then wish that that day i will be able to attend and others also...

saturday night september 2009

after sing k we went to station 1 continue the gathering haha....chit chat chit chat chit chat...non stop chit chating...

share some secret with ji muis...

not really a secret laa actually just 'caring' anywhere, wish all my ji mui will also happy always, and be lovely all the time, i love you all

mr whet block all the classmates loo..but then still can see the table is so long. im the person who sit at the middle...haha

kim liang gor gor and me...he have girlfriend dee..haha..so sweet

mr hunt and me..the guy who will provide a place for 2009 5C gathering....

in the NEWAY subang jaya!

ar jie and me, the super great and kind person i know! i love her....

kelly and me, a very in love ji muis, wish you all the best

pek suan and me, a ji mui that going to get marry soon, wish you be happiness always

a DIY i make for my ji mui to wish them MERRY CHRISTMAS...

today!

i wake up pretty early today, then have a drink with my brother in law....

then i back into dreamland again, haha...i really tired...then my phone is keep on ringing, the agency called me up and told me about the information, to confirm that i will go for the interview at Subang this 2pm...

few minute later, another company called me up, asked me go for interview on 23th but im not interest at the company, because that was a sales jo i guess i may not be able to handle it, haha,then i call them up to do the confirmation.

but then, yesterday a design company said will call me and tell me about the company location, but they din do so, sigh** bad!!!

i was so sick in the job...tiredzzzzzzzzzz...T.T

2nd is....

tomorrow will have a gathering of the secondary classmates...hehe..

im so exciting!! i wan take many pic, because my ji mui also at there....

......honestly time passed really fast,2005...now is 2008..

wow, ade 3 years..yer...20 years old liao..bad lar....im really not ready yet, im rally feel to take so much of responsible yet, i love my teacher, i love my classmate, i love my childhood.....i dun wan to grow up and face the fact!!!!!

sigh**but i have no choice....i should learn to be matural and take the resposible,no way to back....nothing much!! haha..

take some pic at my bed room when i was bored....

check it out!

a lovely bed?...chair?...

just being lovely..haha...

so many word around there...it is messy ..but then i have be match up and form to be a group...can read those word?...the name of my ji muis...8ggalsz...love ya

wonderland..

13 dec 2008

my brother bring we all go to NZT?? roughly like this, near kelana jaya there, a Disney lighting show, it is so nice, some more with the decoration 'christmas tree', so nice!!!!

THE LION KING!!!.....

the street of CARTOON....

the 'MAgic' mickey mouse....so handsome!

MInnie and ME!!

special addition: ...........

a nice day spent with my dear family...

hmmm...im missing someone, but no big deal, heart have each other nothing can be a problem, (maybe laa)...

i have to go for interview again, sobzzz....this time is at Subang JayA..hehe..more near luu...haih, very lazy lo, can some job no need interview and just work ark??

CHRISTMAS IS COMING TO TOWN....

lonely chritsmas.......feel so cold....

1st experience...

3.00pm...


Kuala Lumpur...


JAC recruitment...


my 1st interview...gosh, it so terrible...^.^


but it is a good experience for me..im so happy to been there before...


i have to always remember (body action is important)..


because the person said the body action i have, have shown that im protecting myself, not willing to share my thing, its a main point i have lost the oppurtunity, and im too fresh, the environment of work is not suitable for me, it will bring a lot of stress that i cant be able to handle, but never mind, im ok, at least i have been to an Interview!!!

yesterday, i have chit chat with dear..

and i have realize that something that i want is so easy, just a feeling...it become my everything..haha

sometimes i might sad because of someone..

but then, it will be melt with his word...and everything he do..

it so easy, just a lil action, or a couple word,

i know he wil apperciate me,at least 1 minute..hehe...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY & HAPPY 4TH ANNIVERSARY FOR MY DEAR BROTHER..MAY EVERTHING BE SMOOTH AND GOOD...

a lovely weeks....

3 Dec 2008.

a lonely meal at origins...so so so lonely...aikss....im so sad...haaha..but then its time to be independent lurr...not much just wan to be strong..(actually its about hard for me..because i always get protect by my family)...but then this experience is so so so bad!!!!..LAKSA SNACK..ishh..i will never go there again...i went there and order a tom yam laksa then i wait alomost 15min also not come..ni big deal..after few min the stupid waitress send the tom yam laksa to other malay girl who came after ME!!!....i hate this feeling.. it supose is mine

ok fine i forgive you guys, but then i wont go there again..ever again!

my lonely meal...T.T

5 Dec 2008...

off day...

hehe..went out we my dear lou gong.. and meet with pek suan..since we really long time din meet each others...but then ps just acc us 2 hours only loooor...but then no big deal lurr...LOVE is everything..haha.....she going to get marry with her beloved on her next year birthday..13.o1.2009?..jealous..haha...wish you happy all the time ya!

2nd..

went movie with lou gong jun jun, the BOLT..yea...i like it...haha..its a nice movie, anywhere thank for someone who introduce me to watch it..hehe...have 'lunch' at kimgary....'dinner' at mcdonald...then shopping round and round....hehe..walked until leg also pain...hahha...because accompany jun jun buy her working clothes....

3rd ..

chit chat with dear ji mui is my happiness time..i love you guys..

7 Dec 2008..

working....

but im happy.. because i was had my lunch with my dear lou gong jun jun..hehe...lovely time..

8 Dec 2008

HARI RAYA HAJI...

working..12-9

a good time? dunnoe...i just know that i was so very superb busy, one person have to serve 3 to 4 customer, make me 'big head'..haha.....but then i was happy, at least i never feel boring, i was so excited, because im wearing a high heel shoes and run round and round.. after i have finished serve those customer i only realize that my leg was so pain...sobzz...sorry ya my dear legss...

in addition, my permenant have received a email ... that was a result of " the test by mystery shopper" at my department counter, and the person who meet with the mystery shopper is me!, gosh !! i dun even know that i have served a the person. im so lucky..hehe but then she praise me, she said i have did a good job, muahaha...and i get 100%..wow a higher score..haha,its make me so excites, i dun even know that i have this potential to do well in this situation, it have become a encourage for me....

9 Dec 2008

decoration of christmas at my counter..its nice..hehe

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!

oh ya, today i received a call and the person is from JAC recruitment, asked me go for interview for my application job as admin, im considering should i go or not to go, but no people i can discuss with, i have told my brother, but he is so so so busy no time to discuss looo..

okiezz..

i should be stop here, hehe, ade very long....

have a nice day !

MERRY X'MAS^.^