我们的故事

2006年。。

第一学期的开此。。
我站在office 前，看到一个身穿粉红色衬衫的男孩~
他很吵。。头发遮着眼睛～白白的~
这是我们的第一次相遇～　



2007年

第三学期。。

一个很特别的手表～抓住了我的视线。。
是你～白白的男孩。。
你坐在我的隔壁～



那年的情人节～
我们不约而同的穿上了一样款式的白衬衫～
一点眼神的交流~ 电到啦！！ 哈哈~


一个独自等待哥哥来载我的傍晚，
你坐在我对面的椅子，
我们都在期待对方的行动~ 但。。落空了~



一个短假回来~

你把那头发剪断了～超级短。。
从此，你都戴着帽子来上课～
我们开此在每一次的相遇， 送上了微笑~



传言开此散播~

我们在msn里开此的第一个交流~
你要了我的电话～我给了～
也开此了ｓｍｓ



你邀约我开电影

“校墓处“

一班朋友的电影～
你送我回家的第一天~
你给我的名字~ cinderella...
因为我必须在12点前到家~



天天的信息相传~

你在online 的等待～

clubbing时的你。。却赶回家和我再聊天。。
当时火红的“恶作剧之吻“。。成为我们的话题~
“恶作剧”的这首歌：我想我已慢慢喜欢你～

就这样的开玩笑～
这样的恶作剧～
我们就走在一起了~ 从此你我的每一天都有了对方

第一次聊电话~
我们聊了5小时。。很甜很甜~

第一次的吵架~
你跑进女厕所~
哈哈~ 谢谢你酱为我~

你的大意把车钥匙放在车厢里～
我独自搭车去你家找你～陪你
然后再自己想办法回家～因为不能留太晚。。

哈哈～粗心的你～又一次忘了拿钥匙。。
这次你进不了家门。。
可怜的你～昨晚还通宵打机。。真想说句：活该！！　但却心疼你
别无选择。。就只能寄我门下~
看着你睡在我的床～我却不能抱着你～哈哈～家长在家啊。。

你给我的第一个生日。。没有任何的惊喜～
就连蛋糕也是别人提示你才记得～
可是～我很满足～因为那时我第一次和你通宵的在一起~
你抱着我入睡的温暖～还在我记忆中～

那一次你提出得分手~
我泪洒ｍｉｄｖａｌｌｅｙ，
可是你心疼我？
一切又回到过去。。还买了一双戒指。。

９１１。。
我们第一次坐摩天轮～
你说~ 我看起来很高兴。。
对~ 我很幸福~我很喜欢这感觉~
因为我有惧高症~ 但！有你~ 我什么都不怕~

你喜欢短发女孩～
我把长发剪短了～
你看着我把它一寸一寸的剪掉～
你很喜欢？我很开心
所谓女为悦己者容～

我们在ｌａｇｏｏｎ的游玩～
ｓｈａｂｕ　ｓｈａｂｕ　的狂吃。。
两个人的小菜晚餐～

两个月的假期～

2008年~

回来开学的第一天~
你剪了新发型～
手上拿着小礼物~
一个很可爱的钥匙圈。。。

第一个情人节～
一起穿上灰色的衣服～
上课～去pyramid。。吃晚餐~
发生了很糗的事。。没把晚餐吃完~应该说才刚开此～对不起
我送了一盒巧克力给你～我弄得哦～你很开心地在炫耀～哈哈
这一天的我～很开心

你有我后的第一个生日～
却没能与你度过～
我弄了一个拼图。。我说～把我们的一点一滴拼起来~
那就是你的二十一岁的礼物~

第一个周年庆。。
我送了一个手表给你~
这手表是ａｕｔｉｍａｔｉｃ的～不用电池～只要你动一动它就会走~
就如你和我~ 只要你愿意动一动。。我们就不会停息~

吵吵闹闹。。嘻嘻哈哈~的度过每一天~
一起上课~走走~看戏～赶功课。。
你打球受伤~ 我不顾一切得驾车去找你~
吓死我~唉～。。

你和我庆祝的第二次生日～
这一次。。有了蛋糕～
有了礼物~有了心思~
我了我的笑容~ 和那一吻。。

这一年的9月。。
是你第一次的挫折~
你打球弄伤了左脚~
不方便行走。。
一个星期后～不幸再次找上你。。
你又跌到了~弄伤了~
我第二天赶去找你~ 看着你躺在床上~ 我的心~ 痛！！！！
照顾着你。。的每一个画面~ 都历历在目~
你对我说~ 我们很像老夫老妻。。

我最后的一个学期~
最后一天的课。。
我一个人上～很空虚哦~

我们的第一次旅行~
你的脚还未痊愈～
但却陪着我～我很很很感动～

２００９年～

第二个情人节~
很甜蜜~
这一切就像梦一场~
你不懂我有多开心～多幸福～

你的生日~
我亲自弄了cupcake 给你~
你握着我的手。。那个感觉~
好像很很感动～
是吗？

嘻嘻。。回了怡保一趟。。
很很开心～
你妈妈对我的关心～很窝心。。
我很想你的妈妈～
这一次的旅程~
带给我很多的感触~

第二周年庆～
你没回来~
我和一班朋友庆祝～
你在干嘛？

五月中～你回来补回周年庆
你对我的好~ 是否你觉得你的心已变质了？
那一切的甜蜜~　
是否我的错觉～
在我最甜蜜的时候~你遇上了另一个她。。

六月
我人生的转变点
我变成了上班族

七月三日
前一个星期～
你不理不睬～
那么一点的甜。。　我竟没发觉。。危机。。
终于说出口～
你已经不爱我~
我们的故事～在你恨心下结束了
我想过去找你～当面问清楚～
可是我没有~ 我的理智告诉我。。
在乎他。。必须让他快乐~
那一天的我们都哭了～
你的泪是因为不舍？内疚？

那一天~
我没睡~我只不停不停的哭。。
我看着我的家人～
我无法说出一句话~
我只懂哭。。。
没吃~ 没喝~ 没睡~
每天还在打给你~
你却生活得很好~

直到那一天~
我懂你和她开此了～
我崩溃了～醉了～
打给你的那一刻～你对我说你和女友在将电话～
我疯了！

那天以后~
我不再打给你~
不想再听你的声音~
现在的你并不是我在乎

还有很多很多你让我心碎的事~
我不想再提~
再多的承诺～也只是谎言～因为我不再是你的谁～

今天的我～
还在想念你～
但我再也没去找你～
一切就让它过去

七百多天的相处~
一天就粉碎！！！！

再多的泪～
也没有谁会在意～我也不需要你得在意。。
我就是我～
我喜欢你~ 我在乎你~ 我痛我悲。。我笨！！！！
我都会去承受～

我从未对你说过我爱你～
因我懂～我们都不会爱上对方~
在我们一起的那一天
我们都与料到会分开的一天
只是～一切的发生~ 在我最甜蜜的时候~
21岁的生日~
让我痛不欲生~

我会好好的~
等待着痊愈的那天~

is freaking bad mood

what the hell !!
its comes so suddenly ~ what is in my freaking mind right now? i dun even think of you, but WHY??? the pain is approached to me? ishh ~ wtf!!!

yea~ i rude~ because im darn freaking hate this kind of feeling, i wan to pass through this freaking tough time ~ i DAMN HATE !!!!...

please ..please GOD ...release me ~ let me free of this pain ~ i really dun wan it anymore..as ppl said its useless ~ is not worth for me to keep myself in sadness ~ baby please ...please stop keep myself in pain ~

day after day ~ 3rd Dec ~ 5 months ago ~
finally i knew why im pain now ~
because of this !!!! wtf!!!
im still counding ~ is really a sucks thing i did ~
forget please ~ let the day become ordinary, there have nothing special
is not a smart way to count my freaking sadness day,
be smart, be intelligent ~ this the only i have to do but not keep in pain~

please ~ i just need someone to talk with me ~
i need someone the acc me ~ yet ~ here have no one ~
maybe GOD wan me to bear this freaking pain by myself,
not to depends others ~
yet ..i have to accept and face it ~

yesterday went for a movie ~ NEW MOON ~
this story line is darn interesting for me ~
the romance ~ the pain ~ and the end of choices ~
wth ~
the pain of bella ~ is just like me ~
A HUGE HOLE PUNCHED IN MY HEART
its really a big hole ~
every night i awake ~ to look at the mobile
wish that i can saw a goodnight message that send by you usually..
yet..i get nothing ~ 5 months ago ~
is still keep waiting ~

but ~ baby yen,
you are clear..you know that message will NOT come to you ever n ever again
please, gain a nice n good sleep condition from now on ~
no more dreams of him
please ~
please do this to yourself ~
no matter how hard is it~ you will be success to been through this ~
be strong, be bravo...
believe on yourself, but not him
every single word he told is just LIE !!
he is a LIAR ~
baby ~ not to trust on him anymore ~ those are history ~ please
build up your future by yourself..
go with the future without him ~

you are not longer belong with him
you are yourself ~
your world is AWESOME without HIM..

MAKE IT !!
DO IT !!
RELEASE IT ~

xoxo

决定

这两个字意思。。

很难能做得好的一件事~

决定，必须拥有巨大的勇气，因为我们都必须承受决定以后的结果。。
该结果。。是好是坏。。会后悔？　会遗憾？
真的很难去决择。。

１５岁那年～
我的第一个决定~
选者了商科。。放弃了我的理想。。
现在回想～有那么一点后悔～如当时的我，选择了科班。。会是怎样？

17岁。。第二个决定。。
我还是拿了别人都认为好的科目~
当然我也很平淡风轻的度过了~

19岁。。我遇上了他～
和他的这一段感情 ~
真得很美～
是别人眼中不被看好的一对~
也是没有未来的一对～

21岁。。毕业了~
踏上了上班族的领域～
在那之前还在犹豫着该继续升学？还是工作~
随后还是选择了后者～
因为。。我别无选择～

21 岁的我~　
这一年～　发生了很多的巨变～
我不懂怎么样度过这一切~
像是很难～但也好像很幸运
很多挣扎。。但好像都被我熬过了

如今～12月~ 2009 年的最最后的一个月~
是否干下个“决定”？
让自己去做呢？
很难。。我的心。。真的不懂怎样去做这个决定
因为我怕没这样的毅力去完成~

谁能保证。。所做的决定都能不后悔？
哈哈～
但我懂～没有人能~所以人往往都会为自己做错的决定而后悔～
我不想要有这样的感觉~
因为这感觉真得很痛～

但愿上苍怜爱。。不要让我拥有～
因为。。我已无法再承受“痛”
我一直都在珍惜。。。不让自己有后悔的一刻～

我能吗？

今天的我很冷～

那天我扬起帆
想看看未知的海
心里很多话想说说不出来
虽然我脸上看不出来
天空一样蔚蓝 却换了多少云彩
那时的你让我幸福百分百
是否为我等待
我知道我的爱一直都会存在
没有你泪停不下来
你知道我依赖多不想say googbye
我痛说不出来
我知道我的爱一直都会存在
没有你快乐都停摆
某一天我期待和你笑的灿烂
回头看爱 都在
站在你的门外
我却幸福在徘徊
心里很多话想说说不出来
但我想你一定都明白
时间过的好快 想念却不曾更改
现在的你是否幸福百分百 我应该怎么猜
爱一直存在

will be continue ~~

超强的意志力！！！

１１月１　日～

一个极限的挑战~　

一个有惧高症的女孩～我！！！

选择了面对~　与克服。。。我的超强意志力！！

第一站：

示范：。。。

我已发抖的不象话~

很高！！　很怕～!!　我很想放弃～

玩了这一站~　我已满身汗。。发抖～恐惧感从心而发。。太恐怖了啦。。但我还是撑下去！！我不停的往上爬。。我不敢往下看～我对自己说~　爬上去～不要回头~ 不要看~可是当我爬上了

第２站：ｆｌｙｉｎｇ　ｆｏｘ．．．．

很高～很远~我不敢踏出第一步～

我无法退后~不敢向前～我站在platform 上..呆住了~

朋友的加油声：嘉忻！！加油！！　ｊｕｓｔ　ｄｏ　ｉｔ　！！　

我盖上眼睛～往下蹲。。一晃~我向前方飞去。。　我放声呐喊。。

啊。。。。。。。。。

我过了～但还有更高的阶梯要我爬。。。

another higher challeges have to go with...i have feel that im out of strenght..the stair is soooooooo high ~ i have to use all my strenght to go with it .. .again i feel like "give up"

yet, i told myself ~ : you cant give up like this ~ you can do it ~

the stick is swinging ~ i cant balance it ~ i asked again ~ i wan to turn back~ i cant move forward..help me ~ i cant make it ~ but then there have no one can lend me their hand, yet i just can keep my way, and be calm ~ just use my hand n legs ~ balance it ~ use my way to go thru that ..again ~ i have overcome this challeges staged ~

today, i have been thru alots of challeges stages ~ i cant believe that i have successfully go thru all this challegs..with my strength? my energy? supporting for a branch of friends?a belief on myself? a feeling to overcome? or something in heart that i wan to release out ~

once i decided to join ~ i feel that im going to suicide ~ because im darn freaking scare high ~ i will faint ~ sweating ~ but ~ i have make it finally ~ even i really fear ~ but i still can succeed ~ im bravo ~ lolz ~

this challenges is really mean alot for me ~

its just like our life..once you wear up the gear, you are ready to face the challeges infront ~ once tou climb up the stair ~ you have no way to go down again ~ the only choice ~ move forward, once you step out ..you will feel the fun of flying fox, its amazing ~ you are flying in the air...again ~ you have to climb up to a high level ~ to feel the higher feeling ~ overcome the fear ~ accepted n make a the challenges succeed ~ everytime i feel that i have no strength to been thru ~ i will look at my friends ~ yet the support from them is useful ~ the sound is magic!!..im sweatinfg...thirsty...hungry...out of strength...but i have to bear it up...

i knew ~ once i overcome it ~ there have no more chanlleges for me ~ there no more hard thing for me to been thru..yet, i know that, i cant return, because there is no way for me to go back ~ i just can move forward...every steps i take ~ is nearer to success ~ i believe on that, yet its bring me to overcome all the challeges ~ ...

the satisfaction i have gained ~ cant explain by word ...

NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE ~ !!!! ^.^b

p/s: dunnoe what happened ~ i cant type chinesse suddenly ><

the 82th post in my blog

for the day i created my blog...until today...
every single blog i worte ~ will realted him!!

sigh ~
i dunnoe how can i rescue myself..

im in the office, without soul..
nothing for me to do..
is such a bored bored extremly bored monday ><

yet, i have to say that..
last weeks was so tough for me to pass thru ~
the sux feeling is just keep approached to me...
i hate this !!!!! i really do !!!

is how suffer while im not able to cry...
the tear juat cant drop,
but the heart is pretty pain,
yet i cant breath n talk...
just silent and force myself to ignore the feelings

is just shit thing for me to bear with!!!

please please please ~
please enixx yen please ~
do better than you tot ~
as friends told,
we still have many things need to do ~
we cant just stand here,
have to move forward...

take a bravo feeling
and walk away ~

is almost 4 months ~
more than 100+ days adee

chill baby ~ chill

=)

can everything restart over again??

dont you ever watch a animation called 天空之城 君をのせて Laputa ???
it means a lot of me ~
he loves this animation ~ he loves the song...
before that i never try to listen it, but i know he loves it..and today, the first time i listen to this song... is touch~ but i feel comfortable while listen it ~ just like the feeling he gave to me ~
baby prince ~
you leave my life adee 97 days ~
dont you know ~ i still missing you every second?

i feel to share my feeling to you,
you know ~~ im so sad on today,
because one of my jimuis said that she feel that she not a good friend ~ even she's nobody real friend be with ~
when i saw it ~ the feeling is just like you told me that the feeling is fade away ~
i feel so cold ~ my mind is blank ~ i cant speak ~
but im trying to comfort her word by word...but i feel that ..again im giving stress to her

indeed ~
im not that good in manage a relationship ~
you ~ her ~ someone that be with me ~
i dunnoe what to do ~
i just keep listening this music and try to make myself calm n not to cry
because i know that,
you n her also have some tot in yours mind ~
but then ~
i cant understand ~

im sorry that i have bring stress to you ~
im not mean to be that
but i can tell you ~
I CARE , I LOVE , I APPRECIATE ~

baby ~
never giving up on the better further n relationship we should be

better in time ~ ^.^v

It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through
Going coming
Thought I heard a knock
Who's there no one
Thinking that I deserve it
Now I realize that I really didn't know
If you didn't notice you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All that I know is I'mma be ok
[Chorus:]Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time
I couldn't turn on the TV
Without something there to remind me
Was it all that easy
To just put aside your feelings
If I'm dreaming don't wanna laugh
Hurt my feelings but that's the path
I'll believe in
And I know time will heal it
If you didn't notice boy you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'mma be ok

[Chorus:]
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

Since there's no more you and me
It's time I let you go
So I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is
I'll be fine without you
Yes I will

[Chorus: x2]
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
Even though I really love youI
'm gonna smile cause I deserve to (yes I do)
It'll all get better in time


will be better in time ~
finally here was the 3rd month without you in my life
everything is over ~

and now ~
im doing hard to decide this
LET GO GO GO GO ~~~

will stop myself ~
but ~
nothing gonna change the feeling im have to you ~

maybe god bless us,
stay bliss ~

wake up when september ends ~

long time din updated my blog ~
im so lazy + busy with friends ~
party + outing + clubbing ~
sienz ~ recently i feel so tired on this kind of activities ~
sigh ~ old ade?
might be ~

ahhem ~
few days ago~
you!!! keep on appeared in my dream ~
i hate it ~ because it will makes me keep thinking of ~ ishh

neutral ~
i damn neutral these days
i have passed the tough period ~
and now is another chapter of my life ~

im planning to gain something more meaning for me ~
even i know that ~
something cannot be erase or replace ~
the position of you ~ is remaining ~
lolz ~

still have to gain more strenght to walk further ~
time time time ~
time can heal everything ~
i believed !!
i know that im not ready yet ~
but im in progress ~ lolz

make it better !

至少要平靜!!!!!
在你跌入人生谷底的時候，你身旁所有的人都告訴你：要堅強，而且要快樂。堅強是絕對需要的，但是快樂?在這種情形下，恐怕是太為難你了。畢竟，誰能 在跌得頭破血流的時候還覺得高興？ 但是至少可以做到平靜。平靜地看待這件事，平靜地把其他該處理的事處 理好。

平靜，沒有快樂，也沒有不快樂。能做到這一點，你就已經有了復元的能量!!!!

他的坚持~

昨天公司有个晚餐在ｎｅｗａｙ
在到达门口时～我们看见了一位老伯伯~
他行动不方便，　拿着拐杖，　一小步一小步的走。。
是真的很小步～
老板停下车~扶他过马路。。可是最后他决定载老伯伯回家～
我帮忙扶他上车~
看着他的步伐～
我很难想象他用了多久的时间走到这~就为了买一个小灯泡。。

我的心，突然很痛！
一个行动不方便的老伯伯～为了他的目的而不怕辛苦~
一小步一小步地走～我推测他用了一天的时间吧~

他的毅力～太令我敬佩了~
他的坚持~
他的独立～

我呢？
为了什么在坚持？
我的目的呢？
动力呢？
我不懂~
昨晚的我～又哭了~我再次在公司掉泪～
两个月了~
今天的我～还在心痛的世界~

会好的～会的~
我很好～就算心很痛～也会活得很好！！！！！

面具下的我们。。

昨晚和老公通了电之后。。脑里不由自主的想了很多事情。。我很怕ｅｍｏ所以我不能一个人。。找了很多人说晚安。。聊废话。。。我就是那位面具人。。我其实并不开心，但就是要假装。。为了什么？骗人？骗自己？

老公。。其实我很不舍让你一个人度过这个月。。我原本已准备要请假陪你过２１岁的生日，可是你。。竟突然对我说：消失一个月。。除了震惊。。也明白这决定的来源。。我能做的就支持你。。我们一起加油吧。。。。

你的难过。。。我了。。
你的心痛。。。我了。。
你的一切。。。我了。。
所以我能放心让你沉静一个月。。
你的勇气。。我珍惜。。
我的鼓励。。你要了噢。。
不懂我们要用多久的时间把面具拿下。。
但。。我们至少在努力。。。
会好的。。我相信。。我们会好的~

原来。。说不爱了的。。还在意。。
原来。。说放下了的。。还拿在手里。。
原来。。说开心的。。还在难过。。
原来。。说活该的。。还在心痛。。

原来。。所有的一切。。是我们都在带着面具。。


＊突然其来的消息。。你上星期日在ＫＬ。。你没找我。。可能时间的不允许？还是你害怕面对我？　那一天，　你发了个短信给我。。搞笑的内容。。却笑不出。。淡淡的心痛在心里徘徊。。可能不联络。。真的会比较好。。何谓朋友？其实我们什么都不是。。就是陌生人。。路人甲。。不会再见的我们。。不需要再联系。。因为这一切只为我带来心痛。。我懂我是想念你，担心你。。可是我压抑的很好。。不超票的。。

最近的我都不哭了。。
好了？还是。。我压抑的太完美了？
噢。。我忘了。。
３１号那天。。我哭了一下下。。。因为我突然发觉。。那封超感动的。。超有意思的。。你千辛万苦发给我的短信。。被我删除了。。你对我说：你第一次当别人的男友，很幸运拥有一个包容他的女友。。你不懂我们能走多久，但你会珍惜所有的一切。。
一年了。。这是一年前的心情，如今的你。。走远了。。不会回头了。。可能这就是冥冥中的安排。。要我不再活在那一个短信的世界。。我能吗？
我听到。。看到。。关于你的东西都会不舒服。。就连怡保，这个字都很抗拒。。。我快把自己逼疯了。。。但我还是要压抑。。哈哈。。

人们啊。。
可以把面具拿下。。
诚实面对自己可以吗？
不能咯。。哈哈。。。矛盾到极点！！！

我还好吗？

我還在相信你太自然的謊言
以爲幸福還有可能實現
你的心總有另一面我看不見
我依然把你當成是我的天
你願意保留給我的時間在遞減
你卻說這和愛不愛都沒有關聯
我不懂我們還是不是同心圓
如果心變了怎麽會不明顯
你的愛早已經不同我的心缺了一個洞
我像是個失去心跳的不倒翁動也不能動
你的愛我已經不懂我的愛沒有用
如果你問起我假裝不痛
我們的回憶弄掉了我都不敢撿
你漸漸的改變是暫時還是永遠
你施捨的寂寞讓我比一無所有更難過
我不奢求給我一個結果
如果要走至少告訴我


不痛~假的~
我很迷惘~ 我不懂我是否在逃避
我变成驼鸟了吗？
我好像真的躲了起来呐。。
不看！不听！不问！
会好噢？

为什么我那么努力的让自己开心的我还是在难过？
我笑的越大声，就越心虚。。
我真的快乐不起来吗？
可不可以请位魔术师？
把你变走。。不再留在我心里。。
那我就能真正的快乐开心的笑啦~

他？你？我？
谁会是那魔术师？
好多问号。。却没有答案。。

你的心。。有答案了吗？

all good thing come to an END

Honestly what will become of me
don't like reality
It's way too clear to me
But really life is dandy
We are what we don't see
Missed everything daydreaming
[Chorus:]
Flames to dustLovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
Flames to dustLovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to end?
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to an end?
Traveling I only stop at exits
Wondering if I'll stay
Young and restless
Living this way I stress less
I want to pull away when the dream dies
The pain sets in and I don't cryI
only feel gravity and I wonder why
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to end?
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to an end?
Well the dogs were whistling a new tune
Barking at the new moon
Hoping it would come soon so that they could
Dogs were whistling a new tune
Barking at the new moon
Hoping it would come soon so that they could
Die die die die die
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
Flames to dustLovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to end?
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to an end?
Well the dogs were barking at a new moon
Whistling a new tune
Hoping it would come soon
And the sun was wondering if it should stay away for a day 'til the feeling went away
And the sky was falling on the clouds were dropping and
the rain forgot how to bring salvation
the dogs were barking at the new moon
Whistling a new tune
Hoping it would come soon so that they could die.

可不可以不勇敢？

the day you went away..
until today..another thursday~ 13/8/09
6 weeks ago
long duration? or its just started?
for me ? for you?

im using my heart to let you go
im using every minute to let you go
im using my tear to let you go
im using all effort to let you go
everything i do now ...
just for let you go,
you never know,
how hard im doing right here...^.^v

i smile ~ when i cry
i miss~ when i pain
i felt appreciate ~ because you are here 'before'

give up~
is because you are in love now
give up~
because i still care about you
give up~
because im not bravo enough~
give up~
because i dun wan hurt someone who care me
give up~
because i wan be happy
give up~
because i wan walk further
give up~
because you are not here anymore
give up~
because I FORCE TO DO SO!!!!

im doing hard to think of you~
because you are so far
it so hard to let me look at you
i miss the warm that on your body to me
even now im the one who in cold ~

baby prince ?
i miss the baby prince who care and makes me cry~

*again~ but im not crying ~ ^.^b

还有谁能来叫我爱？

你开心吗？
很多人会问我的问题。。
我不会回答。。

我笑。。真的想笑吗？
我哭。。真的想哭吗？

我会痛吗？舍得吗？
公平？存在吗？
付出？有回报吗？

有人对我说：你变了。。
我愣住了。。
他发觉我变了。。那其他人呢？
我还是我吗？

他说：你不再将心交出了， 你把一切感觉封闭了。。我不懂你到底是否快乐

对!!!他说的没错，　我把悲伤封住了。。
我装傻。。
我不去找寻我心底的心情。。
我不去承认。。左手边的痛。。
我将它遗忘～不理。。逃避。。

心是空的。。
爱是假的。。

等待~我有吗？
放弃～真的吗？

我不想忘了你。。
可是记住你能不痛吗？
我曾对你说：那天你找到一个你爱的人，你就会明白我的心情。。你找到了吗？我想，你应该很幸福快乐。。我说我不爱你。。你相信吗？你觉得那两年的付出是什么？

一封永远都寄不出的信：你说你哥在读书时写过的一篇作文。。

现在这封信是我徐嘉忻写给陈锡泉的。。

陈锡泉，

你好吗？你懂从那天你离开至到现在的我怎样过吗？
我不停的找寻朋友来填补我想你的时间。。
手机里的信息。。我不敢看。。
包包里的照片。。
唉。。多么可笑。。
我还在期待你会回来陪我过生日，结果。。两年的感情也只能换到４个字。。
牛车水拍的那张照片。。还在床边。。
可是你和我却越走越远了。。
你忘了这个我吗？可能吧。。
一直以来，你都没关心在乎我，　现在我走了，你更不会想起我。。
有错吗？？。。

看到我的泪吗？
感到我的痛吗？
我不想忘记陈锡泉，可以吗？
记住陈锡权。。好吗？
我说不出你到底那里好，就是永远都替代不了。。
你的坏，都变好了。。
你的心。。在爱了。。
可是我。。却再次被痛苦吞噬。。
我很想说祝福你的话，可是我觉得我很虚假。。
我开心你快乐，可是难过那不是我陪着你。。

我忘了我写过多少封这样的信。。
也不懂你是否都看完
你说不会有人比我更好。。
你会想收回这句话吗？
我很乱。。
想开心却不想忘记你。。
唉。。。

你可以永远记着我吗？
那天看见什么。。会想起小小的我。。
会笑一下，说：她好吗？

最后一句：
在这世界里，就一个陈锡泉
但。。陈锡泉却是徐嘉忻的世界。。


you will always on my mind ~
i dun wan to forget you~
even im in pain~
i dun care, you are the one ~
but i wont come to you anymore..
just leave it here
silently ...

simple life ~ love you

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=okHNvf2lc0Q

dun simply click it oo~
have to ask my baby's permission
if she said ok then click oo~
chill~

junjun,
love you~
muacxX

i still miss you~

1st Aug 2009
a awesome night?
a happy day?
my day?
lolz~ i celebrated my bday with my family ~ friends ~ and lovely ji muis~
everything seem like so happy ~
but i still feel~ abit empty ~
i still wishing somthing ~ sigh~ stupid!!!

2nd Aug 2009
he promised that he will be here ~
the promise ~ is broke
just a stupid will trust that he will keep the promise
so in fact, stupid know that everything is over...
she spent a happy day with her dear baby ~ junjun
she shout ! she sang out loud in the k room for 4 hours
full of laugh~ without tear ~
she felt so glad that have junjun be with her
she appreciate

12.00am...
ding dong ~
while she on the bed ~
smsing with lovely jun n someone
she pop out from bed ~ run to washroom
then open the door ~
a girl standing there ~ she dunno who she is ~
the girl said : im fedex delivery a cake for you..
me: har? fedex?(is it you)
jeric,johnson,xm,xm,jerret: happy birthday to you ~ happy birthday to you~ happy birhtday to you~ happy birthday to you~
me: omg !!!! a big suprise ~
enixx heart: im so touch~ i feel wan to hug you guys ~ im appreaciate this day~ the thing you guys gave, jsric gor ~ im so glad that have a bro like you, your care, your word~ and your PLAN!! hehe..im do so lucky i have friends like you guys ~ i love you all~

3rd Aug 2009
office~ Alltech's colleagues
had a birthday lunch at Fullhouse ~
a place that i cel my anni with him~
21 lil cake~ 21 lil candle ~
is nice ~ is awesome
and the key given by Alltech
im happY ...i wish i can do much more better here
i started love Alltech

i received a forward bday msg from my sis
my tear dropped ~
i feel so sorry ~ guilty
suddenly ~ i decided ~ sent him a msg
a tot after we broke up for 1 month
i know that ~ he love her~
im so glad that ~ he love someone now ~
finally ~ even i still miss him~
but i let him go ~ because he never belong to me ever again?
hard feeling ! but i smile ~ i feel glad ~
he is the one ~ i cant explain how good he is ~
but he just cant be replaced by anyone ~ sigh
unfortunely i get to be replaced ~ haha
: for the world you are 1 person, for me ~ you are the world ~
i miss you, even you just give me 4 words ~ happy birthday to you!!


at night ~
family dinner ~ shabu shabu~
invited xm's family
eating a delicous food ~
im happy ~ while with family

10pm sis called
: karyen~ 21st loo~ grow up ade, passed ..was pass ~ so dun turn back and think of it ~ today onward start up your new days ~ dun think so much..k?

me: *tear dropped* erm~~ i wull~

4th Aug 2009
went dinner + movie with xm
i forgot how long ,we both din hanging out like this
form the day *** cames to your world ~ ?
lolz~ is good ~ is touch~ lolz in my heart

11.30pm~ ready at sm's house with a gang of friend ~ hehe
12.00am~
*knock door*
sm: why have cake de?
we all: happy birhtday to you!!!
haha~ a suprise ~ lolz
im so sleepy actually ~
but i still wan to join~ because im behalf of 8ggals ~ haha

5th Aug 2008
im sitiing here ~
and type out a report for my day!

dunnoe why,
my heart feel so pain today~
i din think of him~
when i awake, i feel great
i took shower , clean aquarium~,feed my tings n petss
changed the water for lil bamboo
apply a sweet sweet perfume
get ready for work~

but once i sat in the office ~
pain attacked!!!!
is darn pain!!
im curious why i pain~
i tot i let go ade ...do i?

i listened the song "seh bu de"
i keep on consult myself
i have run out of time
i dun like him anymore

but i still pain!!!!!
i miss him~
and i know he miss her~
i just dun wan to be alone ~
anyone acc me ?
i just wan to put him aside ~
let him stay away from me ~
can i?

chin siak chann!!! i miss you badly ~
can you please stay away from my mind
my heart?
is really pain ~
but i dun wan to cry fpr you anymore ~
im do very hard, don't you know?
i said i dun love you!!! i never !!!

is over !!!
forget it !!!!!
let it go!!!
enixx yen !!! you can de ~ believe in yourself!!!
only you can control your mind ~
do it !!!

30th~

曾经何时，这个日期是多么的有意思。。
但今天。。再也没意义了
我很冷，心很空。。
原来当你发现，一个曾经陪你最多的人，在这刻他不在。。
是真的很难熬。。
我很想他。。
撑着！！！ 我一直在努力。。我会好的。。
痛而已。。没关系的。。

不要在意了，不要再为他掉泪了。。
好吗？你懂他不会回来了。。
该停了。。
你要好好过，还有很多爱你的人，但你知道不是他了。。
他变了，走远了。。回不到了
你不是才说你没遗憾吗？你珍惜和他在一起的每一秒吗？
你没浪费过啊。。
所以不要再舍不得了，好吗？
你懂你们的路走不远的。。
醒醒好吗？你可以的！！！
不要再任性了，放开吧。。
痛苦的只有你，他不会懂，也不会在乎的。。
不要再折磨自己。。
痛够了。。。
哭够了。。
什么都够了。。。
开心的。。幸福的。。都拥有了，也没人可以拿走的。。
好了啦。。
不要再哭了。。
笑一笑吧。。。
我很想念你的笑。。。可以吗？

哭了。。等于我放弃了

我。。再次踏进909。。

回想一切过去。。

竟是“过去"..可笑吗？

我要我的快乐回来。。先要放开。。

可是。。我不舍。。就仅仅的‘不舍’两个字。。

让我如此痛苦。。

我想`。。不碰。。不理。。

可以吗？

im not simple as i tot~

i know.. i can be tough if i wan~

i will deserve someone better..

my future is bright~ but not with you..

your future is not mine.. i wont care how you going on~

but your passed is my sweet memories..i will never forget..

is good to be with you..because it is so comfort..

well.. i will be ok soon..

no worry be happy...

the war is over.. i feel to come home again

我把伤口用白纱布盖上。。

不再碰。。

不再打开。。

那怕它是否还在滴血。。

只要不顾一切。。

我懂我可以把伤口愈合。。

需要时间。。

不管有多痛！！　

我会忍过去！！！

我相信我的能力！！

首尝放纵的滋味！！！

我的泪已流不出。。
无论我的心有多痛。。
开此了麻木的状态。。
晚上的十点钟。。
我踏出了家门。。
最近我常晚归。。
我害怕在家。。让家人为我难过。。

一瓶瓶的酒精往我嘴里灌！！
没人可看得出我心有多伤。。
我笑。。因为我哭不出。。
我呐喊。。因为想让眼泪流。。
多少泪还存在我心里？
多少痛还在逗留？

我把自己灌醉。。
头昏晕眩。。
在厕所放肆的吐。。
很想把这一切不快乐都吐掉！！！
我的泪，在打给他那一刹那崩溃了。。
我真的痛了。。

我讨厌这种堕落。。
我讨厌这种自残。。
但。。
这是让我可以短暂得到无忧。。

爸，
对不起。。
我这样放纵我自己。。
你难过，心痛。。我懂得。。
可是。。
我不懂我能如何面对这一切。。
我的理智。。快用完了。。
我的勇敢。。快被抹灭了。。
爸，
我很想再站起来！！。。
但这一刻。。我站不了。。
我撑不到。。我真的很累。。
一直很用心的付出。。
可是。。
我却得到无尽的伤害。。
我能承受多少痛？
坚强？可以不要吗？

有一句话我再也听不到。。
那些过往让它自己燃烧。。
我和你太美丽。。
时间会知道。。

我想继续放纵。。
让我放弃所有的期待。。
我回不去。。
也过不了。。
我想停止我的一切。。。
可以那么自私吗？

我做到了吗？单身的第11天~

如果一個女人 第一眼就看上你
如果一個女人 願意給你她電話號碼
如果一個女人 願意給你吻下去
如果一個女人 願意跟你每天甜言蜜語
如果一個女人 收到一份小禮物便開懷
她是喜歡你的

然而當一個女人 堅守她承諾
當一個女人 希望你需要她
當一個女人 會等待你回覆
當一個女人 想起你就心甜
當一個女人 要求你去解釋
當一個女人 因你而改變口味
當一個女人 不做你不喜歡的事
當一個女人 希望和你分擔一切
當一個女人 會對你身邊的人好
當一個女人 著緊你對她的感覺
當一個女人 想知道你所有去向
當一個女人 願意為你製造驚喜
當一個女人 有你一個擁抱就滿足
當一個女人 會擔心你擔心一整晚
當一個女人 常說期待跟你一輩子
當一個女人 只想和你去她喜歡的地方
當一個女人 每天都把介指戴在手上
當一個女人 安排所有節目前先想你
當一個女人 在你睡著的時候不敢睡
當一個女人 容忍你做她不喜歡的事
當一個女人 記得你衣櫥裡有什麼衣服
當一個女人 將你的位置放在家人之上
當一個女人 即使膽怯也陪你見全家人
當一個女人 在你跟其他人親密時呷醋
當一個女人 記得第一次約會時你穿什麼
當一個女人 在逛街時總想到買什麼給你
當一個女人 為了你的生日早一個月預備
當一個女人 在做每一件事之前都先想你
當一個女人 願意忽略自己的感覺去為你
當一個女人 會放下手上工作去理會你陪你
當一個女人 不聽別人的勸告堅決跟你一起
當一個女人 去一個跟你曾到訪的地方想起你
當一個女人 把你送給她的所有都好好收起來
當一個女人 會為了你在公眾地方也流下眼淚
當一個女人 憑一張照片就可道出當天所發生的
當一個女人 會花時間將你和她之間的事記下來
當一個女人 永遠在你失落時給你靠岸進她懷裡
當一個女人 在熱戀期後仍傳來一個掛念你的短訊她
一定很愛你的

我都做到了吗？可能吧。。
很可笑，昨天我是开开心心的去诳街的。。
可惜的..我竟不停的流下眼泪。。
已有很多天没流泪了，
我以为我好了，其实只是我不敢去触碰。。
我们最一次的见面。。最后一次牵着你的手。。
一切都过去了，两个月前。。就只是两个月前的事情。。
这是你教我如何成长？还是学会如何逞强？

火柴女孩。。我很想帮你买一根火柴。。
把一切过往，一把火燃烧！！！变成灰烬。。
这种痛，很陌生。。原来以前的痛也不过如此。。
我会永远记得这种痛。。
这一切都是你给我的。。你也拿走了我一切甜蜜。。
等你学会负责那天。。谁会拥有这福气？
可能是那个笨蛋呐。。哈哈哈。。。

我不怕痛。。
我只怕没有梦。。
等？。。看着办咯。。。
嘴上说的， 心想的， 人做的。。是不会一样的
我说我不难过， 我很快乐。。
你相信吗？
我说我痛不欲生。。很想放弃生命。。
你相信吗？

我可以忍受！ 单身的第4天

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ORtaW3swQys

在无意间，我听到这首歌~
泪不听话的往下流。。
我懂你~可你不懂我~
现在的心情有点不错。。
这几天。。没吃。。没睡。。
真的不懂为什么。。强迫自己吃！睡！

你还未离开我的生活~
我们还在联系着~
是你对我的补偿？还是你还有那么一点的在乎呢？
希望是后者~
你~很好吧?
这是你想要的吗？
如果是~那祝你幸福~
我在这一刻很平静~
我还是很痛！！！！！
你还是会离开我的一天~
我再怎样在乎也没用了。。
能做的。。放开你~~

宝贝,
再见了。。
我真的要让你离开了。。
你要保重..
我还是会想念你的。。
谢谢你给的， 和你拿走的一切
我会好好的~
我不会站着等你的~
我也会往前走~那一天我们真的可以在努力~
我也会像现在一样珍惜
我没后悔过~

保重...

cinderella~

please~say GOODBYE to cinderella...
she had lost her prince last night~
in peacefully..
with honest~
she wishing that prince will come back one day~
she praying that, the feeling will come back one day~
she just keep on waiting..
she cried because he gonna fade away~
she cried because she cant called him baby anymore~
she cried because she is happy that he honest to her
she cried because he cried~

Dear, Baby prince~
i'm ok~
no worry~
thank you for keep me on your mind~
you will always on my mind~
take care..

cinderella is gone~
fairy tale is ended~
430-------037...........
cinderella wishes it will be continue~
may god bless cinderella

1st tagged~

Due to fact i really nothing to do in the office...
and wana to gain some experince of tag~
so i going to do it~hehe..
here we go~


FOUR NAMES THAT FRIENDS CALL YOU:
1. karyen
2. 嘉忻
3. nixx
4. my full name><..chui kar yan!!! (xm always do)

FOUR MOST IMPORTANT DATES IN YOUR LIFE:
1. 3rd Aug
2. parent's birthday
3 30th Apr?
4. -

FOUR THINGS YOU'VE DONE IN THE LAST 30 MINUTES:
1. Facebook
2. searching customer database
3. blogging
4. -

FOUR WAYS TO BE HAPPY:
1. sleeping
2. shopping
3. chit chat with someone
4. vacation!!!

FOUR PEOPLE YOU MISS FROM YOUR PAST:
1. no one?
2. someone i have 'miss'?
3.
4.

FOUR GIFTS YOU WOULD LIKE TO RECEIVE:
1. Camera
2. Car..*haha*
3. bag
4. dream come true~

FOUR OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES (CURRENTLY):
1. facebook
2. shopping
3. blogging
4. talking with him ~

FOUR PLACES YOU WANT TO GO FOR VACATION:
1. Cameron Highland!!
2. Japan
3. Hong Kong
4. Taiwan

FOUR FAVORITE DRINKS:
1. Honey Lemon
2. green tea
3. 100 plus
4. Orange juice

FOUR THINGS ALWAYS FOUND IN YOUR BAG:
1. purse
2. mobile phone
3. key
4.money~

FOUR FAVORITE COLORS:
1. black
2. white
3. purple
4. baby colour

TOP FOUR HANGOUTS:
1. My sis's place
2. My home
3. Office
4. -

TOP FOUR U LOVE SO MUCH:
1. Family
2. Egg girls
3. someone i care
4. Friends

TOP FOUR "THINGS" SPECIAL TO YOU:
1. money *haha*
2. a promise?
3. Photo
4. Memories

TOP FOUR WHO YOU THINK WILL ANSWER THIS SURVEY:
1. i din tag anyone as well~
2.
3.
4.

TOP FOUR REASONS WHY YOU ANSWERED THIS SURVEY:
1. im super bored here~
2. gain a experince?
3. let people know that im really bored~*haha*
4.

lolz~~im done~

1st probation month is passed~

lolz..
finally i have done my 1st probation month~~
2 month to go~can it go faster?
faster confirm me la~then i can buy a car..and plan alot of thing for my "future"..
hehe..
by the way, my manager is on leave for this week~
so im free like a ............ nothing to do at ALL!!!!
damn bored in the office..
time pass damn slow..oopsss..
erm...
conclusion for this 1st probation:
i have learn a lot of things..
such as..managed a event?
purchasing..
booking..
survey...
lotsa lotsa little thing in the office..
to most expert thing i gain is......answer phone call..hahahhha
whatever..i get my first salary ade~~lalala...
but have to spend it soon~T.T...

dear,
i feel like alot of thing wana share with you,
i know you still trying hard, work hard and doing your best at there..
i knew it!!! you feel sad when you makes peoples around wondering you..
but it have no choice..because we care you much...
so..you wan we all stop wondering you..
the only thing you can do------
DO SUPER HARD ON EVERYTHING AND MAKES YOUR LIFE BECOME MEANINGFUL, STILL HAVE A LOT OF THINGS IS WORTH FOR YOU!!!!! TRY TO REALIZE SOMETHING THAT BESIDE YOU ~ chill my dear ...i miss you~

is July ade,

something in my heart..i dunnoe how to explore it..haihz...feel blank**

next week going to my graduate ceromony!! *^.^v*

what a week?

WHAT A WEEK?
how i have passed another week of june?
hehe..here you go..
24th Jun 2009
the APLT of my company..A super PRO seminar i have been..its awesome!fantastic!hehe..this is what my boss descibe- DR.LYONS..
cool men~he is a interesting person..and a smart uncle~
the issue that we gonna analysis next , is this:

FOOD SUPPLY CHAIN, half years ago, my marketing manager have post the report to customer and educated them about the 'food safety' and yet in this seminar, we have build a board and ready a question for them to answer : what is the weakeness stage of food supply? hehe..

see my superb formal wear- funny la wei~dun even match my style>.<

while waiting for the speaker arrive Malaysia~before that that they at Indonesia, 3.30pm arrived Malaysia then have a talk to us, then 8.00pm finished the talk , straight awat head to airport for 8.30pm flight to India for another seminar, gosh!! 1 day 2 country they need to travel, just like those super star who have their concert..hehe..

the seminar hall..Subang Sheraton Hotel, ballroom....

the name tag for guest that we have invited, from every corner of Malaysia,- sarawak?sabah?penang? ipoh?hehe..by the way, i was the people who ready those name tag~contact with guest, i have sent out 200++ email. sms. and even call out them for the comfirmation to attend..damn letih~but some of the person tipu me lo~din show up themselves also..bad!

table setting~also done by me!!..is really tired with this~every single stationary that we display also have to follow the formula~how the pen should display?left or right?the company name is show up~the note but on top~the brouncher make sure is standing~the chair~and the evaluation paper on the chair~the selplex tablet~everything may have its own standard~tiredxxx..ZZzzz

after those speaker finished the talk, we bring the guest to restaurant to have their meal~then, we have to head back to ballroom, and clean up all the thing, actually is keep all those display we have set up there~ we started to ready those display item on 7.30 am - 9.30pm i only can back to my home~somemore i dun have eat my dinner with them~i was tooooooooo tiredx~

by the way, boss is good..because he have treated all of the colleagues to TGI friday for lunch~hehe..no bad ma..

25th June 2009

a durian day with xm,sm , jh n jh's sis- caca..at ss2

not bad not bad~RM15 per person ..eat all you can!!!

26th June 2009

early in the morning, while i turn on the radio, i have received a bad news..

KING OF POP --- MJ IS GONE~~he have dead because of heart attack?

he is a legend..no one can replace him~may you REST IN PEACE..

27th June 2009

hehe..

went Pavilion wth my sis

CIMB have FOC ticket for Transformer 2..

such a interesting movie~not bad mer

even that was 2 and half hours la~~but i din feel any boring moment at there..

somemore is FOC , got popcorn and soft drink provided..cool~

hehe..i love BEE.. BUMBLE BEE. he is so cute..OPTIMUS PRIME? damn 'ying'

by the way~thank you CIMB have give me a wonderful movie~

~

erm~~in confuse here~

next month my company have organise a company trip,

they have invite me!but i still under consider..should i join?

others colleagues can bring relative, friends or family along..

but due to the fact im still under probation~

cant bring anyone along~i have to travel by myself~~

how? how? how?

i wonder that i will be superb boring looo...><

share some opinion leh~^.^v

一个人。。。

一个人听着歌

享受着一个人的滋味

有点孤单。。

有点太安静。。

尝试把歌的声量调大。。

企图想把寂寞感赶走。。

看着时钟在转动。。

一分一秒。。。滴答。。滴答。。

就这样浪费，挥霍我的青春。。

我等了一整晚。。

我等到了一半期待。。

该开心吗？他没忘记，但也忘了。。哈哈

是因为我想念他的时机不对，所以影响了今天的心情！！！！

父亲节快乐。。

突然其来的想念

听着歌。。看着歌词。。
写着长篇大论。。想和你说说心底话。。
现在的你，在干嘛？
clubbing?新朋友还好吗？
等着时间过，很想你快点打通电话给我。。
因为现在的我真的很想你。。
下雨天。。。
很想念这样的天气。。
一个人？两个人？一堆人？。。
都一样！！！！！
怎样的我能让你更想念？
怎样才能感觉到你对我的体贴？
等等等~~无止境的等。。。

this week~

week 3 of june

i feel this week passed superb fast ~

monday,

hang out with jiahui n xiengmei, went pyramid had dinner, and bought fw's birthday present, after that head to subang snowflakes, yum cha with eugene, jo , and damz, have a funny day i spent..by the way, eugene told me that, my ex's brother is getting married last week, oops, xiengmei's first puppy love..haha...

playing in fitting room..
the 1st pic i taken with eugene since i know him from now..omg
the group photo~hehe

tuesday,

work~then go home and rest, hehe, then i told dad n mom: i treat you both go taipeng for travel la, just enjoy la..wow..im so good.haha.but this is what im actually wish to do~hehe, i know dad n mom is happy with this.

wednesday,

went connaught pasar malam with brother, a awesome pasar malam, lotsa people, we purposely reached there around 7pm, then bought a lot makanan~haha, makes my bro suffer in take all those makanan~by the way, this night, jun is different, she going to be another jun on this day, im wondering, but as i know, she is smart n taking good care for herself, clever..muacxx...

thursday,

pasar malam again?

hehe..no lo..im went clubbing again at MOS..
but with my rother..uncle's n auntie's clubbing trip..
but this night is not fun enough..

no leng chai also...so bored..haiz..

riday,

finally, wahaha...

but this day im damn lazy to work..

i have to call up 100++ guest for the confirmation to attend APLT nect week,

please la, reply it la, dun need me call one by one mer..
haiz..then went to sis's house overnight..
recently every weekends i also spent at sis's house..

feel good at her place..

one of the product in my company~trial pack

addition:

im listening the song that jun posted on her blog..

the lyrics..omg..this is song, damn blue~~

makes me think of lotsa things..hehe..

but im ok...no hard feelings oo..a nice song actually

'xia yu tian' - lara (nan quan mama)

i dun wan a boyfriend

i dun need a boyfriend, i need real men..
i need someone who was really care n love me..
honestly, im not the person who say' i love you' easily..
im sensitive, i will think a lot only say this...
erm~~hehe..
but i do said it always to my lovely ji mui
because i do really love them a lots~~

as i know~
8ggals..
9 of us..4 is single~3 of them just broken up between april n june~
what i should say?
nothing....>.<
what can i do?
nothing...>.<
i just can try hard to spent my time with them..

jun,
you go clubbing really have to be careful..
i know i very long gas..
but i really really worry about you..

x-mei,
welcome back,
im glad that you doing so great without that piece of ".."

s-mei,
hmm...problem need to solve,
escape, is not a way to solve it,
if you really think this is a right decision..
i will support you..
and try to be chill..

hui,
a little hope~
i will acc you while you waiting,
2 years........

me?....
speechless..
not dare to say anything

kelly,
i wish you are really in happiness with him,

lian,
you are so mystery,
i cant really find out what you doing now,
haiz...

anne,
you are the most luckily girl,
chills...
and be happy being Mrs lucifer

suan,
when only marry?
fast fast laa..
postpone for so long adee,
wait until neck grow long liao la..>.<

maybe i dun need a boyfriend, but i need you guys,
my lovely jimuis..
I LOVE YOU!!!