is freaking bad mood

what the hell !!
its comes so suddenly ~ what is in my freaking mind right now? i dun even think of you, but WHY??? the pain is approached to me? ishh ~ wtf!!!

yea~ i rude~ because im darn freaking hate this kind of feeling, i wan to pass through this freaking tough time ~ i DAMN HATE !!!!...

please ..please GOD ...release me ~ let me free of this pain ~ i really dun wan it anymore..as ppl said its useless ~ is not worth for me to keep myself in sadness ~ baby please ...please stop keep myself in pain ~

day after day ~ 3rd Dec ~ 5 months ago ~
finally i knew why im pain now ~
because of this !!!! wtf!!!
im still counding ~ is really a sucks thing i did ~
forget please ~ let the day become ordinary, there have nothing special
is not a smart way to count my freaking sadness day,
be smart, be intelligent ~ this the only i have to do but not keep in pain~

please ~ i just need someone to talk with me ~
i need someone the acc me ~ yet ~ here have no one ~
maybe GOD wan me to bear this freaking pain by myself,
not to depends others ~
yet ..i have to accept and face it ~

yesterday went for a movie ~ NEW MOON ~
this story line is darn interesting for me ~
the romance ~ the pain ~ and the end of choices ~
wth ~
the pain of bella ~ is just like me ~
A HUGE HOLE PUNCHED IN MY HEART
its really a big hole ~
every night i awake ~ to look at the mobile
wish that i can saw a goodnight message that send by you usually..
yet..i get nothing ~ 5 months ago ~
is still keep waiting ~

but ~ baby yen,
you are clear..you know that message will NOT come to you ever n ever again
please, gain a nice n good sleep condition from now on ~
no more dreams of him
please ~
please do this to yourself ~
no matter how hard is it~ you will be success to been through this ~
be strong, be bravo...
believe on yourself, but not him
every single word he told is just LIE !!
he is a LIAR ~
baby ~ not to trust on him anymore ~ those are history ~ please
build up your future by yourself..
go with the future without him ~

you are not longer belong with him
you are yourself ~
your world is AWESOME without HIM..

MAKE IT !!
DO IT !!
RELEASE IT ~

xoxo