feeling....

Feeling....
today someone told me that if you always dream the dead body it may actually represent you are feel sad in your heart....
im was thinking what is the sadness deep inside my heart? honestly i always dream it, even i scare until wake up, but then what makes me feel so?
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refresh my memories again, adee whole month never dream of that..is it means that recently im happy? because if what? haihz....im so lost la...
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on the other hand, i still have something that make me confuse....
i may did something wrong, i felt so guilty, but then i dunnoe how to appologise ..i think she not meant to be like this, jealousy really a big trouble! sigh***
i'm sorry if i make you feel bad...
i really make a big mistake!!! im so sorry, but then i can tell you, he was a good guy, i know that you are important to him! no worry k? from last time i know him until now i can feel that he was changed, maybe its really because of you!!! just try to share your thing with him, he was your prefect places to dump all your sadness, because he do really care of you! dun keep all thing deep inside your heart, sometimes silent will kill the happiness....just share everything! you are the miracle for him, since you decided to be with him, believe him!
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come back to my personal part,
i feel emo again, dunnoe why just feel the tear is rolling in my eyes? although im listening the sweet love song,'forever' this word is so............(speechless)
'rational' it might be...the -ve thinking? i too rational in love,i cant treat love as everything, i have consider alot of thing, how come i cant like others just shout out 'I LOVE YOU FOREVER' gosh!! this word is so hard for me sigh**T.T
maybe because the past experience that i have gain, it affect the perception that i have when related in love, i cant even trust a person said 'I LOVE YOU ',mabye the person do, but a lot of thing that happened around me...its have prove that there have no 'FOREVER', or can said that because of last time i do really believe that the guy was good, but then now i realize that everything was a cheat. as day goes by, i flash back to the thing i have done, i analyst it, and the conclusion is i have blind!!!
but then, i guess i have no regret on those thing, because learn from mistake,maybe they treat me bad doesn't mean that they treat their beloved bad, maybe just because im not their beloved, just a advise dun ever hurt someone, even though your not like ot love he or she!
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anywhere, wish all the person who view and read my blor will gain a happiness life and meaningful relationship!! be glad that have someone beside you and apperciate what you have now....dun make yourself regret.....