超强的意志力！！！

１１月１　日～

一个极限的挑战~　

一个有惧高症的女孩～我！！！

选择了面对~　与克服。。。我的超强意志力！！

第一站：

示范：。。。

我已发抖的不象话~

很高！！　很怕～!!　我很想放弃～

玩了这一站~　我已满身汗。。发抖～恐惧感从心而发。。太恐怖了啦。。但我还是撑下去！！我不停的往上爬。。我不敢往下看～我对自己说~　爬上去～不要回头~ 不要看~可是当我爬上了

第２站：ｆｌｙｉｎｇ　ｆｏｘ．．．．

很高～很远~我不敢踏出第一步～

我无法退后~不敢向前～我站在platform 上..呆住了~

朋友的加油声：嘉忻！！加油！！　ｊｕｓｔ　ｄｏ　ｉｔ　！！　

我盖上眼睛～往下蹲。。一晃~我向前方飞去。。　我放声呐喊。。

啊。。。。。。。。。

我过了～但还有更高的阶梯要我爬。。。

another higher challeges have to go with...i have feel that im out of strenght..the stair is soooooooo high ~ i have to use all my strenght to go with it .. .again i feel like "give up"

yet, i told myself ~ : you cant give up like this ~ you can do it ~

the stick is swinging ~ i cant balance it ~ i asked again ~ i wan to turn back~ i cant move forward..help me ~ i cant make it ~ but then there have no one can lend me their hand, yet i just can keep my way, and be calm ~ just use my hand n legs ~ balance it ~ use my way to go thru that ..again ~ i have overcome this challeges staged ~

today, i have been thru alots of challeges stages ~ i cant believe that i have successfully go thru all this challegs..with my strength? my energy? supporting for a branch of friends?a belief on myself? a feeling to overcome? or something in heart that i wan to release out ~

once i decided to join ~ i feel that im going to suicide ~ because im darn freaking scare high ~ i will faint ~ sweating ~ but ~ i have make it finally ~ even i really fear ~ but i still can succeed ~ im bravo ~ lolz ~

this challenges is really mean alot for me ~

its just like our life..once you wear up the gear, you are ready to face the challeges infront ~ once tou climb up the stair ~ you have no way to go down again ~ the only choice ~ move forward, once you step out ..you will feel the fun of flying fox, its amazing ~ you are flying in the air...again ~ you have to climb up to a high level ~ to feel the higher feeling ~ overcome the fear ~ accepted n make a the challenges succeed ~ everytime i feel that i have no strength to been thru ~ i will look at my friends ~ yet the support from them is useful ~ the sound is magic!!..im sweatinfg...thirsty...hungry...out of strength...but i have to bear it up...

i knew ~ once i overcome it ~ there have no more chanlleges for me ~ there no more hard thing for me to been thru..yet, i know that, i cant return, because there is no way for me to go back ~ i just can move forward...every steps i take ~ is nearer to success ~ i believe on that, yet its bring me to overcome all the challeges ~ ...

the satisfaction i have gained ~ cant explain by word ...

NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE ~ !!!! ^.^b

p/s: dunnoe what happened ~ i cant type chinesse suddenly ><

the 82th post in my blog

for the day i created my blog...until today...
every single blog i worte ~ will realted him!!

sigh ~
i dunnoe how can i rescue myself..

im in the office, without soul..
nothing for me to do..
is such a bored bored extremly bored monday ><

yet, i have to say that..
last weeks was so tough for me to pass thru ~
the sux feeling is just keep approached to me...
i hate this !!!!! i really do !!!

is how suffer while im not able to cry...
the tear juat cant drop,
but the heart is pretty pain,
yet i cant breath n talk...
just silent and force myself to ignore the feelings

is just shit thing for me to bear with!!!

please please please ~
please enixx yen please ~
do better than you tot ~
as friends told,
we still have many things need to do ~
we cant just stand here,
have to move forward...

take a bravo feeling
and walk away ~

is almost 4 months ~
more than 100+ days adee

chill baby ~ chill

=)

can everything restart over again??

dont you ever watch a animation called 天空之城 君をのせて Laputa ???
it means a lot of me ~
he loves this animation ~ he loves the song...
before that i never try to listen it, but i know he loves it..and today, the first time i listen to this song... is touch~ but i feel comfortable while listen it ~ just like the feeling he gave to me ~
baby prince ~
you leave my life adee 97 days ~
dont you know ~ i still missing you every second?

i feel to share my feeling to you,
you know ~~ im so sad on today,
because one of my jimuis said that she feel that she not a good friend ~ even she's nobody real friend be with ~
when i saw it ~ the feeling is just like you told me that the feeling is fade away ~
i feel so cold ~ my mind is blank ~ i cant speak ~
but im trying to comfort her word by word...but i feel that ..again im giving stress to her

indeed ~
im not that good in manage a relationship ~
you ~ her ~ someone that be with me ~
i dunnoe what to do ~
i just keep listening this music and try to make myself calm n not to cry
because i know that,
you n her also have some tot in yours mind ~
but then ~
i cant understand ~

im sorry that i have bring stress to you ~
im not mean to be that
but i can tell you ~
I CARE , I LOVE , I APPRECIATE ~

baby ~
never giving up on the better further n relationship we should be

better in time ~ ^.^v

It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through
Going coming
Thought I heard a knock
Who's there no one
Thinking that I deserve it
Now I realize that I really didn't know
If you didn't notice you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All that I know is I'mma be ok
[Chorus:]Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time
I couldn't turn on the TV
Without something there to remind me
Was it all that easy
To just put aside your feelings
If I'm dreaming don't wanna laugh
Hurt my feelings but that's the path
I'll believe in
And I know time will heal it
If you didn't notice boy you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'mma be ok

[Chorus:]
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

Since there's no more you and me
It's time I let you go
So I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is
I'll be fine without you
Yes I will

[Chorus: x2]
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
Even though I really love youI
'm gonna smile cause I deserve to (yes I do)
It'll all get better in time


will be better in time ~
finally here was the 3rd month without you in my life
everything is over ~

and now ~
im doing hard to decide this
LET GO GO GO GO ~~~

will stop myself ~
but ~
nothing gonna change the feeling im have to you ~

maybe god bless us,
stay bliss ~

wake up when september ends ~

long time din updated my blog ~
im so lazy + busy with friends ~
party + outing + clubbing ~
sienz ~ recently i feel so tired on this kind of activities ~
sigh ~ old ade?
might be ~

ahhem ~
few days ago~
you!!! keep on appeared in my dream ~
i hate it ~ because it will makes me keep thinking of ~ ishh

neutral ~
i damn neutral these days
i have passed the tough period ~
and now is another chapter of my life ~

im planning to gain something more meaning for me ~
even i know that ~
something cannot be erase or replace ~
the position of you ~ is remaining ~
lolz ~

still have to gain more strenght to walk further ~
time time time ~
time can heal everything ~
i believed !!
i know that im not ready yet ~
but im in progress ~ lolz

make it better !

至少要平靜!!!!!
在你跌入人生谷底的時候，你身旁所有的人都告訴你：要堅強，而且要快樂。堅強是絕對需要的，但是快樂?在這種情形下，恐怕是太為難你了。畢竟，誰能 在跌得頭破血流的時候還覺得高興？ 但是至少可以做到平靜。平靜地看待這件事，平靜地把其他該處理的事處 理好。

平靜，沒有快樂，也沒有不快樂。能做到這一點，你就已經有了復元的能量!!!!

他的坚持~

昨天公司有个晚餐在ｎｅｗａｙ
在到达门口时～我们看见了一位老伯伯~
他行动不方便，　拿着拐杖，　一小步一小步的走。。
是真的很小步～
老板停下车~扶他过马路。。可是最后他决定载老伯伯回家～
我帮忙扶他上车~
看着他的步伐～
我很难想象他用了多久的时间走到这~就为了买一个小灯泡。。

我的心，突然很痛！
一个行动不方便的老伯伯～为了他的目的而不怕辛苦~
一小步一小步地走～我推测他用了一天的时间吧~

他的毅力～太令我敬佩了~
他的坚持~
他的独立～

我呢？
为了什么在坚持？
我的目的呢？
动力呢？
我不懂~
昨晚的我～又哭了~我再次在公司掉泪～
两个月了~
今天的我～还在心痛的世界~

会好的～会的~
我很好～就算心很痛～也会活得很好！！！！！

面具下的我们。。

昨晚和老公通了电之后。。脑里不由自主的想了很多事情。。我很怕ｅｍｏ所以我不能一个人。。找了很多人说晚安。。聊废话。。。我就是那位面具人。。我其实并不开心，但就是要假装。。为了什么？骗人？骗自己？

老公。。其实我很不舍让你一个人度过这个月。。我原本已准备要请假陪你过２１岁的生日，可是你。。竟突然对我说：消失一个月。。除了震惊。。也明白这决定的来源。。我能做的就支持你。。我们一起加油吧。。。。

你的难过。。。我了。。
你的心痛。。。我了。。
你的一切。。。我了。。
所以我能放心让你沉静一个月。。
你的勇气。。我珍惜。。
我的鼓励。。你要了噢。。
不懂我们要用多久的时间把面具拿下。。
但。。我们至少在努力。。。
会好的。。我相信。。我们会好的~

原来。。说不爱了的。。还在意。。
原来。。说放下了的。。还拿在手里。。
原来。。说开心的。。还在难过。。
原来。。说活该的。。还在心痛。。

原来。。所有的一切。。是我们都在带着面具。。


＊突然其来的消息。。你上星期日在ＫＬ。。你没找我。。可能时间的不允许？还是你害怕面对我？　那一天，　你发了个短信给我。。搞笑的内容。。却笑不出。。淡淡的心痛在心里徘徊。。可能不联络。。真的会比较好。。何谓朋友？其实我们什么都不是。。就是陌生人。。路人甲。。不会再见的我们。。不需要再联系。。因为这一切只为我带来心痛。。我懂我是想念你，担心你。。可是我压抑的很好。。不超票的。。

最近的我都不哭了。。
好了？还是。。我压抑的太完美了？
噢。。我忘了。。
３１号那天。。我哭了一下下。。。因为我突然发觉。。那封超感动的。。超有意思的。。你千辛万苦发给我的短信。。被我删除了。。你对我说：你第一次当别人的男友，很幸运拥有一个包容他的女友。。你不懂我们能走多久，但你会珍惜所有的一切。。
一年了。。这是一年前的心情，如今的你。。走远了。。不会回头了。。可能这就是冥冥中的安排。。要我不再活在那一个短信的世界。。我能吗？
我听到。。看到。。关于你的东西都会不舒服。。就连怡保，这个字都很抗拒。。。我快把自己逼疯了。。。但我还是要压抑。。哈哈。。

人们啊。。
可以把面具拿下。。
诚实面对自己可以吗？
不能咯。。哈哈。。。矛盾到极点！！！