lost control...

yes !!! im missing you ..
officially missing you..once i woke up..
im pressing my hp...looking for songs to listen...
tot want to find some song to cheer my day..
but ....automatically ...
i go in the folder ..a private folder..
a memorable folder ...
listening to a familiar sounds ...i smile ...

after all ..i shout out loud :SHIT!!
i did something wrong =( i should not open this folder .
im controlling myself so hard ..
but i know ..
as much i controlled ..the more i miss you..
just like ...when ppl ask you dun think of elephant ..
but whats in your mind?? ...elephant right?

i know this really torturing ...
but i have no choice ...
just miss you ...i know ...will be better after all ...
will be =)

i have ton of things wanna share with you..
i have ton of feelings wanna to tell you..
how lucky that you found someone that can share everything with you
unfortunely i dun have ...
nope ..should be ..i havent meet the person yet ..

sometimes i do think about ..why?
why im the one in pain..
why i have to take so long to recover..
even now still trying hard to let go ..
again ..im looking at the mirror n said ..
this is you ...
once you love....you will love it forever ..
maybe just changing the way of loving =)...

smile ...n say cheese ....